I went to bed on time. But, I am extremely tired. I am taking all the right things (iron, pro-renal vitamins, etc.) to ensure I have the strength to do everyday things. It is indeed getting harder and harder. Read about more people who have started the dialysis and who say they feel so much better after dialysis. But, I am still hesitant about starting dialysis because some research says it is better to wait until your kidney dysfunction is at the 10% mark. The person survives better and longer. I may have to have another consultation with the nephrologist and discuss my options again. I originally wanted the peritoneal dialysis where the port is attached to your abdomen. But now I have the fistula installed. Will seek peritoneal as my first choice for dialysis.
I am too tired to get up from this desk and walk to the bathroom. This is so ridiculous!
Well I did go to the bathroom. Thank you Lord for stamina!
I have not written on my COMPS for two weeks. Just too tired to concentrate. Not complaining. Just find relief in typing what I think. I have so much to thank God for. I actually ate lunch today. Irv brought me a grilled chicken salad from McDonald's. I did not eat lunch on Tuesday and Wednesday. I was toooo tired and tooooo proud to ask someone to assist me. I thank God for those he has placed in my path that helps with getting my lunch. They are definitely instruments of God. Have no idea how much they help. Probably think I'm lazy. That's the problem with having hidden illnesses like chronic kidney disease and Lupus. No one really knows when you are really sick, hurt a lot, etc. You form a wall to hide it as long as you can. I know others can empathize with what I am saying. you really do not want to worry people. And if you report every ailment - they will label you a hypochondriac or a chronic complainer. So it's better for all to keep it to yourself, sometimes. I share rarely and only a little. I feel guilty when others worry about it (like my family for sure).
Well Lord, thanks for allowing me to rant and tell you how I feel. I leave it in your hands to handle. Don't know why I keep picking it up. LOVE YOU LORD!
Your servant!
No Excuse - A Philosophy for SUCCESS!
Mrs. Janice Mitchell Isbell
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